Direction

I've been feeling lately that I don't have any direction in my life. I don't know what I want to do, why I'm here, what would make me happy, etc. I feel lost and stagnant. Sometimes I feel like my best times are behind me. Could be that I'm a bit depressed - I don't know - or maybe I'm depressed because I don't know what to do with my life. I wish I didn't have to worry about money - or to get a job for the sake of having a job just to pay the rent. I want to make a difference. Perhaps I'm having a 20 years from a real mid-life crisis? Hell, the past 15 years have been a crisis.

I don't know what to do? And that worries me...and scares me.